22, Ecuadorian, Currently in Vegas.
I’m gonna join the army reserves until I graduate.. Then joining active. I hve nothing else here in vegas, might as well. Thursday is the day I take the test!
Everytime I get attach to someone I get scared and push them away.. I think I did that to her.. I scared her off. But god damn, on one point I’m glad because we weren’t going to work out, she’s older, has her live together, lives in California. But in another point, I’ve gotten attach to talking to her everyday even when I was out the country. I was planning a trip to California on October just to see her. But we got in ONE argument and now she won’t talk to me.. And it’s all my fault.. I messaged her, commented her, and even texted her and she hasn’t reply to either of them.. I’m so sad bc we were actually feeling things towards each other and she even asked me to wait for her and I have, and still am.. Why do I push people away.. I feel like this is my fault. I just want to know why she stopped talking to me, if I knew I could finally stop thinking about her.. But wow, she’s just the most beautiful person I’ve ever talked too, inside and outside.. Idk what to do, I feel like I’m bothering her if I message her or text her again..
She’s straight, but she said she felt something for me.. We talked everyday for months.. I missed talking to her. Even as friends..
Straight girls will be the death of me.